Remembering Baby

Baby Davis, your mom misses you so much each day. Every time I leave the house, with just my purse and my keys, I wish I was loaded down with a diaper bag and bottles and a stroller...and you. Every time I look in the rearview mirror and don't see the car seat and your sweet face, my heart breaks. Your dad doesn't understand. He thinks I need to move on, to learn to forget. How can I forget? I thought things might get easier after Christmas, after April 17, 2010 your "birth date," after Mother's Day, but I still want to cry every time I see a baby boy your age. Maybe we'll try again some day, but I worry the same thing might happen again. I don't know if I can take that chance. Your cousin Kallie says she sees Grandma Elsie rocking you to sleep in her dreams, and I believe her. I fought so hard for you, but God had other plans. Please forgive me for not being able to carry you like I was supposed to. Your growth, nourishment and safety were my only responsibilities, and I let you down. Remember I love you and you will always be in my heart, my Bean.

my son had passed away 3 weeks ago. he was only 2 1/2 months old when he passed away from sids in his sleep. his father had found mason all bule and he try to give him cpr but he was long gone. i was in kanase for a week the day i was coming home to see my son and husband. my husband told me that mason wes no longer with us. i broke down and cry i almost missed my plan. i never got the chance to see my baby till the viewing i wish i never left, i miss holding my son in my arms and his crys i will give up every thing to get the chance to here him cry or see him giggls at me. thier are times where i fine myself looking for my son at even in the moring around the time i will nomarl feed him. then it hits me that he is no longer here with me. it brakes my heart every time. i go and vist him every saturday and every 7 th of the month. mason ray messer is now 3 months and 8 days old as of today. ill never get the chance to watch him grow up or buy him his frist pair of shoes and get him ready for school. i was cheated out of all that i would have gave my son the world. now me and husband cant even go to stores for a while cuz every time we see kids playing and babys around mason age we both cry and ask why this had to happen. my son was a happy healthy baby hw wayed 14 pounds and he was 24 inches long. my son was going to be a be tall biy like his daddy. just hope my son know that i love him very much and ill see him one of these days

Eleanor, you will always be our first baby girl. I remember your strength as you struggled through your first two days of life. I remember your first cry and the way you squeezed my hand in the NICU. I remember how you opened your eyes to look at us, your Mom and Dad, so briefly. I am grateful for the way you brought our friends and family together. I am also grateful for the way that you have opened my eyes to what is really important in my life. Thank you my love.

My little girl was born on June 25, 2010. We named her Charlotte Lillian but call her Charley. She is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen and I was instantly in love. More in love then I have ever been in my life! My husband was instantly wrapped around her itty bitty finger! I had a very healthy pregnancy, carried her full term, and she always had a strong heartbeat. There were no signs that anything was wrong. About 3 hours after I delivered her, the nurse became concerned by her breathing, saying it was a little to rapid. She took Charley to the pediatrician and it all went downhill from there. The pediatrician decided to run some tests discovering that she had neuroblastomas. We were told that in newborns these aren't that big of a deal. The cells in a newborn's body regenerate so quickly that the tumors go away on their own. The very last thing we were told was that we would be able to bring her home in a few weeks. About 45 minutes later the nurse rolled her over and she went into cardiac arrest. My husband and I held her hand and talked to her as they worked on her telling her how much we love her and letting her know she wasn't alone. Two hours later they declared her dead. We just stood there in shock. We had just been told that she was going to be ok and we were going to be able to take her home. How could she now be gone? After the nurses and doctors cleared out we held her for a long time, took hand prints, and bathed her. As much as we didn't want to go we knew we couldn't stay there forever. We dressed her in the very first outfit I bought for her after I found out she was a girl and then laid her down. Walking away from her as she laid on that table was the very hardest thing I have ever had to do. Charley passed away on June 27, 2010. We only had two days with her, and while they were the scariest two days of our lives they were also the very best two days of our lives because we had her. Our Charlotte Lillian is the biggest blessing either me or my husband have ever received.

to our baby turner, my body couldnt hold you any longer, there was nothing more on this earth i wanted. much love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Bradley Steven Boyes 25th June 2010 6.27am Weight: 1lb 11oz Lengh: 30cm My precious son. You are in my heart, in my soul and in my mind forever little angel. I miss you soo much and everyday keeps getting harder. I love you with all my heart little one. xxxxxx

A good friend of mine lost her baby around 12 weeks, and she passed away later that evening. She was so excited to become a mommy. We didnt know the gender, but i know that baby is being loved on by his/her mama everday in heaven. In memory of Andrea and her baby.

We first found out we were pregnant March 5, 2010. It was the most amazingly scary day ever.. While i was in shock my boyfriend seemed relatively calm.. after i calmed down a bit i told my mom and dad that they were gonna be first time grand parents i wanted to wait to tell them but i just couldn't i was so excited. i remember laying in bed that night wondering what my precious angel would look like or whose personality they would have.. it was the most amazing feeling knowing i was gonna be what i have always dreamed about being.. a mommy.. the evening before Easter i went to visit my mom. while i was there i noticed a brownish colored discharge when i went to the bathroom i freaked out but my mom said it was just my body cleaning itself out and that she would take me to the hospital if i wanted to go. i decided i would just wait.. the next day everything seemed fine... it wasn't until Friday April 16, that things went downhill i woke up and was spotting i just knew that it wasn't good Thomas and i went to the hospital my parents met us there i was a wreck i just had a feeling deep down that this wasn't gonna turn out good.. they ran tests did ultrasounds and the whole time i just felt broken everyone tried to console me and tell me to hope for the best but i just knew.. anyway the doctors refused to give me an honest answer because i didn't have insurance... i was angry.. Thomas and i went to stay with my mom cause she was the only person i wanted to be around i cried a lot that night i just wanted an answer.. Thomas didn't want to believe it and when i saw the pain in his eyes i felt the need to be strong for him... on Sunday night i started to have the most unbearable pain i didnt sleep much nd monday we headed back to the hospital again nothing.. so we went somewhere else waited for hours nd got the confirmation was miscarrying.. they said it was a blighted ovum the baby never really developed. after i found out i was just relieved to have finally been told the truth i was still trying to be strong for everyone else i didnt want sympathy nd i didnt know how or even if it was ok to grieve if the baby was never even there.. so i was numb to it all for the first month or two.. nd then one day it just hit me i just started bawling im still trying to get through the pain of losing my baby sometimes i feel so alone like everyone already forgot... people tell me well maybe it juat wasnt the right time or maybe something was wrong with it and i kno they mean well but it just makes it that much harder.. my angel you will always be my first baby and i will never forget you.. until we meet again i love you so much love mommy