Remembering Baby

Being pregnant with twins I was very excited and a bit afraid. However at my routine sonogram at 27 weeks on Sept 22, I was told Twin A no longer had a heart beat and he was measuring a week and a half behind Twin B who was still doing great and very active. I was able to keep them inside for 2 more weeks. On October 5th @ 10:13am, I gave birth to my very tiny Twin A. We named him Tyson Jones he was 2 lbs and 0.6 oz. It is very hard to have lost him and I miss him greatly, but we do have Twin B (Lavin Asa born Oct 5th @ 11:42am 2 lbs 9 oz) we have to worry about right now he is in the NICU he is doing good and improving everyday. It is hard, but we understand God has a plan for everything that happens in our lives and I\'m thankful I have family to help us through this hard time. I think of him every day and say his name because he was my son and I loved him very much!! <3 Tyson Jones We Love You!! You are now our little angel in heaven. <3

Over the past week I have spent a lot of time thinking of my babies. Twin babies that were lost April 3,1996. Another baby October 29,1999. All three were lost around 11 & 12 weeks. We had been blessed with 5 children before and after those losses. And we followed that up with one more. When our youngest was almost 7 we found out I was pregnant again. How excited we all were! The kids couldn\'t wait for another baby to love. At 17 weeks, while I was home alone, my water broke and seconds later our baby boy slipped from my body. I still remember my gut wrenching screams and the sobs that shook my body. Our little Samuel Warren entered the world on October 22,2010. The family came together to bury our little one and mourn. Several months passed and I trembled as I read the pregnancy test, positive. I wanted to be happy but I was so scared. But time passed and the excitement grew again. We all cried the day we heard our baby\'s heartbeat for the first time. Again 17 weeks, a fever (just a cold?), you\'re fine you don\'t need to come to the hospital, pain and fear. An early morning race to the hospital and then the unthinkable, my water broke. Three hours of labor and still the baby had strong heart tones but finally I was told that I had to push because our baby was being born breech. It was horrible, listening to your heart beat and knowing with every push I was pushing you to your death. William Nathaniel entered this world on June 28,2011. I will never forget holding him and bringing him home to be buried beside his brother Samuel. My two little boys, side by side under the red maple that we planted on our 10th wedding anniversary. My heart is still torn and I miss you so much. Mommy and Daddy, and all your brothers and sisters would have cherished raising you. Our lives will never be the same.

Baby Z turned out to be two babies. One was in the tube and one was in my uterus. Though the doctors didn\'t find the one in uterus until after giving me drugs for the tubal. Needless to say, I lost two babies that year. Not just baby z. I have not been able to get pregnant since.

My rememberance is to my daughter aminah ariel change I lost her at 24 weeks she is loved by me still even though she is not here physically she is here with me spiritualy she would have been 10 months. In agust of this year I lost another child I was 8 weeks I beliieve I am meant to be a mother when God is ready I am ready

For Anastasia Louise Barcelo - May 12, 1998-July 14, 1998 a poem written by Uncle Tony Catarelli My friend, My friend, please don\'t cry Your child is in Heaven, she has wings to fly She\'s with the true Father in Heaven\'s above She\'s showered with kindness, And nothing but love She\'s walkin with Jesus, with angels at side, And knows how you felt on the day that she died She wants you to know she\'s doing just fine She\'s safe and protected till the end of all time Nobody knows why God does what He does But believe in your heart, He does it with love So friend, dear friend, please don\'t cry Stop asking the questions of how come and why Your child is in Heaven with the King of all Kings She\'s a beautiful angel with beautiful wings

To my sweet angel babies three, \"Lima Bean, Baby Heart and Twin.\" Mommy misses you all every day. I may have only got the chance to see you on a monitor, but I have loved you all since day one. You may not have been strong enough to stay with us, but you gave your strength up so that we could have two miracles to hold. You, my sweet angels, are the most giving souls I know. You gave up your lives so your sisters could live with us. For that you will NEVER be forgotten. I love you very much and someday I will get my chance to hold you. Lima Bean: 7.5 weeks October 2006 Baby Heart: 6 weeks March 2007 Twin: 4 weeks March 2009 miscarriages

Although you only lived inside me, you are still our little miracle. We\'ve been through so much and waited so long for you that we were beyond ecstatic the day we found out you existed. I\'m grieving so much for you right now, it is so hard to accept that you are gone. No matter what I want you to know that you are loved and could never be forgotten. I miss you so much, you will always be my precious child. Love always, Mommy.

Maya Cherise, your were the most unexpected blessing I could have ever recieved. You came as a surprise and the 6 mos I was fortunate to carry you I will always remember. It\'s been four years since you made you early entrance and I still feel it like it\'s today. Mommy loves you more than anything. I wish you were here so I could see you laugh and play with your cousins who are the same age as well... you three girls would have been a handful for your nana. My heart still aches for you and someday we will be reuntied. I love you my daughter you were so beatiful and tiny. My arms are still empty, but I have you forever in my heart. Love, Mommy