Remembering Baby

I am remerbing my two babies. July 5th 2009 next mont will make one year I lost my first baby Angel, and my 2nd baby I lost was March 8th 2010 of this year. They will forever have a place in my heart and mind and I will see them again one day. It has changed me forever.

maddison marie fiscus was born on may 14th 2010 and died 24 minutes later die to a cord prolapse. i was 6 1/2 months pregnant . all the emotions in the world couldn't describe the feelings i have about losing maddison. maddison was a blessing to us. when i wanted to get pregnant they told me the lining of my uterus was too thin and i would have to take hormone shots to help thicken it back up but about 3 months later i was pregnant without any help . i was so excited . i have maddisons pictures and belongings everywhere and i visit her grave often. nothing will ever be the same.

3 weeks ago i lost my twin boys i was 21 weeks pregnant. i still dont understand why, and is so hard that my first and last feelings of being a parent is feeling hopeless, if i could give you my life! i would. i miss you soo much it was hard to let you go! i still see your little faces in my dreams and on your daddy eyes, you guys looks sooo much like ur daddy, i will NEVER forget you! you will forever live in my heart and in my soul. so i cant say good bye...i'll say i'll be seeing you wait for me in heaven when the time comes! i love you forever my lil angels!! Love always Mommy!

One year ago today, 2 days after her due date, my sister and her husband enter a hospital room and listened to the devastating silence that came from the ultrasound machine. One year ago tomorrow, my sister gave birth to her beautiful son Owen. I was there that day and watched through tear filled eyes as my sister and brother-in-law held their son for the first and last time. I want to personally thank all the other mothers out there who share their stories and have helped my sister to feel a little less alone. My sister is the strongest person in my life and I place all of you right there beside her. Thank you for your sharing your stories, offering your sympathy, and keeping hope alive for all those grieving the lose of a precious child... Love, kind thoughts, and hope for you all!

I am sorry that I never got to hold you or see you. You were so wanted and loved even before you were created. I hope that one day we get to met and cuddle in heaven and that in the meantime your great-grandparents are looking after you. You will always be in my heart. Mummy x

Two weeks ago I gave birth to my twin sons Andrew and Brian. I was only 15 weeks gestation. They were very tiny, but very perfect. I will never understand why this happened. The Dr's all said everything was fine....clearly it was not. I regret that I never held you close, while it was still possible. I will always wonder what your personalities would be like...and how you would get along. Your family will always love you. Your sisters will always know they had two baby brothers. If there was something I could have done...I would have. I will always wonder if there was something I did to cause this....even though they said I didn't. I love you both so very much....and my heart will never feel whole without you. I love you.....my baby boys...always Mommy

I still feel your cheek on my hand, I see your eyes and your curly hair. I miss you more than you will ever know my baby Sophia. I am sorry I complained about our late night feedings, I am sorry that I didn't hold you more. I thought we had more time. My beautiful baby! I want to hold you and smell you and kiss you all over but you are in a better place. Mommy loves you my Sophia, you are forever loved.

im so after losing u i dont know why you had to leave me alone but u are always in my heart from the minute that u went to another place i hope that you have a nice time and that ur grandparents and everyone else in my family are keeping u safe for me im sorry that i have not been to see u recently but i cant get over losing u my 9 day old baby mummy loves u very much ok and i will come and visit u very soon miss u loads and i love u more then life its self love your mummy xxx :(