Remembering Baby

Emily Elizabeth you were strong and glorious the moment you were born. I wanted to see you so badly. The doctors told me you might be blue because of your heart problems, but you breathed and kicked and wailed with all of your might. I'm so glad you were so fiesty. I am also so grateful I got to touch your little foot before they rushed you away to try to save your life. I really thought your strength would carry you through surgery. I really thought Gary and I would see you in a few short hours in CICU. You fought as hard as you could for over six hours. It's so short, too short. And I never got to hold you alive. I'm so glad your daddy did. I thank God you were in my womb for nine months and ask God, "Why?" you couldn't stay with us longer every minute. Emily, I love you so much. My dear, sweet, red headed fighter-girl! We were/are so proud of you. Please pray for your parents. We're so sad without you.

ON 20TH MARCH 2006 I GAVE BIRTH TO A BEAUITFUL BOY CALLED JOSHUA COLIN MELLOR-WINFIELD HERE WAS 22WKS&3DAYS.ITS AS BEEN 6 MONTHS SINCE I LOST HIM AND IT HAS BEEN SO HARD FOR ME OVER THESE PAST MONTHS. LAST MONTH I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGANAT AGAIN AND I JUST CANT GET MY HEAD AROUND IT AGAIN THAT I AM GOING TO BE A MUMMY AGAIN COUSE MY SON GAVE ME A WISH TO BE A MUM. SO THANK YOU SON! MISS YOU SO MUCH I THINK OFF YOU EVERYDAY. LOVE MUMMY&DADDY BROTHER TONYXXXX BORN 20/03/06 PASSED AWAY AT 4PM 20/03/06 5 SEC LATER.

Amelia Freedom Gayle Autry, I was so excited when my water broke on my duedate (June 9, 06). You were born the next day by c-section. Mommy tried to push you out honey but you were stuck, and the doctors couldn't get you out fast enough. Mommy and Daddy both miss you so much, and I never let an hour go by without a thought of you. I wish I could have heard you cry just once, and seen your eyes look at me and know I was your mommy. I only had you for nine months and that is not enough time my love. I miss you always, and I wait for the day I am with you again. I know you hear me when I pray and know that I send you a kiss and tell you I love you everynight before I go to sleep. You were the most beautiful baby I have ever seen and I know your personality matched. I wish I could have known you outside of me baby. Mommy love you with all my heart.

My Precious Baby, I knew you were with me the moment you were conceived. I don't know how, but I just knew. I've loved you with all my heart since day one. You were taken away from me before I even got a chance to hear your little heartbeat. In your last moments, I said that I didn't want you anymore. Please know that Mommy does love you so much. Yesterday was the hardest day I've ever had to go through. I never thought I'd have to actually say goodbye to my little baby. I can never forgive myself for even thinking I didn't want you, because I know it must have been my fault now that you're gone. I wish the world could stop spinning so I can catch up. Its hard to breathe without you. I'm sorry I couldn't provide enough for you, I'm sorry that it was my body that failed you. I'm sorry that in the few precious weeks you were with me, I was a horrible mother to you. You are and will always be our first little baby. I just don't see how I'm supposed to say goodbye to you. Even though you can't be with us, please don't stray far. I promise need you. Mommy and Daddy miss you so much.

my baby girl angela, eventhough i never got to hold you in my arms i loved you ever since you started forming in my body. i miss you so much i ask myself was it something wrong that i did im sorry if it was.. i ask god why me? but no answer your father and i loved you so much i know we will meet someday and i would have my chance to see you and feel you little body. my baby girl i love you so much but i know you are in a good place with god with you i love you!! until we meet again mommy nohemy and daddy louis

Baby Jayden Halls passed away on 01st June 2006 at 14 weeks. Never got to meet you sweetheart, you were in mommies tummy for such a short period but the love we have for you is so deep and we miss you terribly. RIP our little angel ...

To our sons George and David, our lives are empty without you, all I keep thinking is why why why? We lost George at 21 weeks and 4 days when we had to make the worse "choice" of our lives. We lost David at 21 weeks and 4 days when it seemed that your brother called for you and you went to play with him, we are waiting to find out why you didn't want to stay with us. I want you both so so much that there is not a minute that passes that I do not miss you, need you, want you. At least you are together, never alone. Until we meet again, Love mummy and daddy. George 20th Nov 2005 David 7th Aug 2006

My beautiful baby boys. We spent...14 weeks together. And our time to-gether was the most...trying period in my life so far. You know, I'm only 15 years old. Your father is 16. With my medical condition (I have low Von Willebrand's factor. It means my blood doesnt clot easily), he thought it best that I had an abortion. I spent the first 5 weeks debating whether I should or not. He finally convinced me to. It took us...actually, up until 2 weeks ago to get the $450. 8 days ago, I went to a Netflix showing of Clerks in Marine Park in Red Bank. A man walked up to me and punched me in the stomach. I was in such pain the next few days. That Saturday I went to the gynecologist for a consultation (to switch brands of birth control) and I requested an ultrasound to check on you two. She couldnt find a heart beat. On Monday I started to feel these excruciating pains. I started to bleed. Yesterday, Tuesday, you- Victorino Alejandro Castañeda II...came out. I held you in the palm of my hand. I ran my fingers over your tiny little body. Your feet. Your legs. Your torso. Your arms. Your hands. Your little head. Though not fully developed- it was still apparent the traits you got from both me and your father. You had my nose. You had your father's slightly deformed ear. I wept over you. I talked to your father last nite. I told him about you. He cried hysterically. He let me know how much he cared. How much he loved you and your brother. To-day I buried both of you- Victorino Alejandro Castañeda II and Paolo Guiseppe Castañeda- in the woods at the dead-end of my street. I made little head-stones for the both of you. I painted your names and the date on them. I decided to give you your father's name, Victor, out of respect for him. Knowing that he loved you. Knowing that he really did want you to hold in his arms. And you, Paolo, I named after your Grandfather- my Daddy- Paul Castellano. He never knew about you. But if he did, he would have done his damnedest to help me provide for you. Boys, I want you two to know that your father and I did want you. Your father was just thinking about my welfare. See, with my disease- childbirth would have been nearly fatal. We did care about you. And we miss you terribly. We love you both with all of my heart. (The phone just rang. Victor just called me crying over you. He would have made an amazing Daddy.)